Working the System

13 Apr 2001, 12:21:43 PM

I was tweaked early this morning--the usual time--by my Progressive Reality trainer about the post i wrote yesterday on "working the system." I realized that my statement about "giving up" working the system after many years of trying (to do what?) was untrue.  I just switched the system i was working to a more obvious one and still work it (or it works me). I went from "Take charge of your Life! Master all circumstances! Know the Mysteries of the Ancients." to a growing conviction that we are not in charge of our lives, and the general uncoordinated chaos that would result if we were, to what may seem to be an utterly laissez faire system but is not, "Of myself i do nothing and its projective parallel "Do what you want." 

If you see Self as the One Doer, they are the same and not opposing.  After analyzing my own unrealistic surface goals, hopes and expectations from my early "working" efforts, I began to realize changes taking place, satisfying unrealized hopes. New expectations blossomed. From that experience, I would like to ask all of you to survey your own hopes and expectations from your working the system. If you go deep enough I think you will have an enlightening surprise. Working the system from shallow hopes is no mistake, just another step in perceiving a Progressing Reality. Tell us what you discover. Joseph

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"Of myself i do nothing" and "Do what you want."

Some Paradox!

My own recent experience:

Master all circumstance: The more I desire, the more I do. The more I do, the more desires attach to me. I can do it all. "To infinity and beyond!", I say. Finally, I am juggling 15 balls in the air, imagining that I can master them all. But mastery requires discrimination - eliminating those things which stand in the way of mastery. And since I can't work 24hrs a day, a decision must be made. Which desires are more important than others?

I swing the sword, and eliminate those activities so I can pay attention to those "more important" things. But wait! The limb has been severed, but the desire remains. Pain and suffering result. My significant other apologizes for making me "give up" the activity that I so loved. "You are more important than my music", I tell her. She buys me a statue of a man playing the violin for my upcoming birthday. I tell her I'm selling my violin. She cries.

"Please return the statue", I say. It's imagery would only remind me of my unrequited desire and bring pain.

I try to sell my violin. Luthier tells me I only get 50% of what I paid. F*&k me! Can't even quit without getting ripped off! Put violin in closet. Maybe some day . . . .

Do not fear! A new desire takes hold, and plans are made to pursue the new activity. I delude myself that "time can be made" to entertain this new desire within the constraints of my other obligations. I pick up my neglected guitar and start to play . . . .

WHAT A FOOL BELIEVES.

I am doing what I WANT, as WANT does me.

The One Imager (Tiphareth) imagines, and through the Imaginative Intelligence (K13) personal Desire is born (Netzach).

Desire thus takes specific form within the mind of the recipient. A specific image of what one wants to "be" or "do". Connecting link between Desire (Netzach) and Intellect (Hod) = K16 (The Tower).

The mind employs the intellect (Hod) to start to figure out how to get from here to there. But I think that it is ME doing it (Erroneous theory of will from K16).

This Desire form also generates related images relating to the fulfillment of this desire (K17). Imagery is stimulated into activity from our subconscious storehouse of images (Yesod).

These images, charged with emotion, move one to act and engage in activities which build mental and physical capacity (K18). My body starts to move in accordance with desire.

These activities consume time, energy, and resources which must be taken from other activities. Life to one means death to other things of a lower priority (K21). Am I a slave to desire, or do I learn how to administer my resources?

This limitation of resources brings one into conflict with other desires. All competing for the same mental time and energy. Judgments must be made (K6-K13-K20). What gets to stay and what gots ta go?

Intellect (Hod) now has to make choices. The devil (K15) of appearances and of bondage and limitation rears its head. I can't do what I want to do! She won't let me! I haven't got the time anymore! I no longer have the energy, etc.... Must use discrimination (K6) to see where it's coming from. Who's behind this Devil keeping me from what I want? The face of the beloved (Tiphareth) which lies behind the mask is still murky. So I suffer some more.

So now I see how the game is played. The "One Image making entity" wipes out old form and plants new seeds of desire which stimulates my subconscious to create images which provide form for manifestation. This desire also moves one to action so as to build more capacity and capability into my body. This desire also stimulates my intellect to work out plans for accomplishing the goal while giving the impression that it is ME doing it. Then the "One Imager" throws obstacles in my way in the form of the appearances of limitation which forces me to use my intellect and discrimination on my desires and to eliminate those desires and things which stand in the way of my mastering my time, energy, and resources.

All the while this One Imager is pouring water on my intellect, and fire on my desire, it has a foot in my subconscious, thus influencing the forms which my desires take as well (K14).

Thus, my consciousness is undergoing compression, like in a diesel engine. The piston is S6-K13-S7 (Tiphareth-Death-Netzach). The restricting cylinder is S6-K15-S8 (Tiphareth-Devil-Hod). The entities undergoing compression are S9 (Yesod-Subconsciousness) and S10 (Malkuth-Physical body).

And the #1 reason I ain't gotta clue as to who's doing it is shown in both K16 and K15. The man and woman have their clothes on, so I think that I'm the one doing it, and all my intellect can see when it tries to look directly at the Real Doer, is the Devil!

What's needed is true discrimination (K6). Subconsciousness is being compressed-purified so that it can reflect Superconsciousness. Then the perception of the Devil is replaced with a vision of the Beloved and when the intellect looks at subconsciousness it can see the Sun (K19).

Now I know what it's like getting crucified (albeit slowly).

But it's for my own good, I suppose. God's just squeezing me till I ignite, and letting me think that it's me doing it. ( keep positive thoughts as I suffer in darkness ).

RL