Date: Tuesday, August 24, 1999 7:42 PM
Subject: Dr. StangeLove, or How I learned to love the Darkness.
M. writes:
While it is true most certainly that we are not the doers, it has also been clearly pointed out that we
act AS IF we were in order to make progress on the Path. It strikes me as a little arrogant to keep
putting down others remarks by claiming "I am not the doer. What a joke that inquiry is."
There is in reality no separation either, yet we use the Tarot and the Tree of Life in order to understand, have discussions, etc.
M., this concept (that trying to "manage" something is a joke)
is not something I would dare state from theory. It is my personal experience of
the Irony, of the juxtaposition, of the radical truth that the whole massive human endeavor to
"control" things from a separatist, egoist
point of view is quite literally the biggest joke I've ever experienced.
I've come to the conclusion that the only real progress I've made in this life have been on those
occasions where I have had the insight and wisdom to "let go". On those occasions when I
have been able to let go, I
have found profound, peace, joy, and yes even Freedom. These occasions have been an epiphany for me.
If one really wishes to "manage their emotions" then they must take
the unthinkable contrary (K12) path of "letting go" of their attachments
(the cause of negative, separative emotions), by recognizing the only "attachment" that counts (see
K12). And this also means "letting
go" of trying to "manage" (directly control) their emotions.
I say, keep your eye upon discerning "face of the beloved" in all
things, and let God handle the rest.
I Surrender. I give up to God all that I am, and all that I ever will be,
and let go - falling, falling, into the black pit, into the darkness,
into the scintillating black void, down the black throat of the Great
Serpent, and ...... I .... find . . . . . . . JOY.
and I am Initiated - Reborn into the Stange-Lovian (K12) realm of those who SEE the Love in the
Darkness, and who thus walk contrary to the rest of the "world".
So how can I be the "doer" when all my struggles have been for naught,
and the only true Joy I have, has come from surrendering myself to another, taking up the Cross willingly - and thus
surrendering myself to the One Beloved who is within ALL?
